Oh Captain, My Captain.

Yesterday afternoon, we were told of the loss of one of the greatest actors of our time. Robin Williams was an amazing comedic actor who brought so much joy to the lives of many people. Most people are extremely saddened by this death, myself included.

Robin Williams brought joy and smiles into my home as a child through Aladdin, Jumanji, and Night at the Museum, taught preteen me the meaning of being a person in Bicentennial Man, but most importantly, his role as Mr. Keating in Dead Poet’s Society taught teenage me how to appreciate poetry and love life.

Dead Poet’s Society taught me that what I have to say is important. That I matter, and that this day is important. It sparked a love of poetry in me. Before I watched this movie, I couldn’t stand poetry. For a fifteen year old writer, I hated writing poetry. But after watching this movie, there was nothing I wanted to do more than write poetry. I still couldn’t stand it, and I still thought I was the worst poet ever. But I yearned to write poetry, and I have Robin Williams’ Mr. Keating to thank for that.

Robin Williams played the English professor who taught me to think differently and showed me that there’s nothing more important than today. I have to remember that each day is important, and that there will never be another day like this one. Today is completely unique and its own, different from yesterday, different from tomorrow. I cannot express how thankful I am for this lesson.

Sadly, this inspiring actor lost his life to suicide. Notice I didn’t say “died of suicide”. He lost his life. Suicide is the end of a long battle so many people fight with depression.

I am one of those people who’ve fought depression. I battled and fought hard, and I think I have overcome many parts of it. I still fight a battle with it everyday, but there is nothing that I can do to make it “go away.” It’s a sickness, just like any other medical condition. It’s just in my brain, instead of in my blood, lungs, or heart.

Unless you have struggled with depression, you cannot understand the darkness that just envelops you, and makes you feel like there is nothing to live for. You feel completely helpless, and that there is no one out there wanting you to stay alive. There is no pain like the pain of depression, and some of it’s more terrible side effects. It is impossible to describe a pain so deep and surrounding that it makes you want to end your life on this planet. It is something else entirely.

For one last and final time, we will stand on our desks for you, Oh Captain, My Captain. 

 

My deepest sympathies go out to the family of Robin Williams during this extremely difficult time.

 

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